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move along

2008-03-23T13:59:00.000+08:00

illusions

2008-03-21T01:14:00.044+08:00

so i haven't had the time to update. simply tooo lazy to do so.
so just a quick one with pictures to do most of the talking. 14march was spent with R at pasir ris park going blading.
it was a laugh-until-your-stomach-hurts experience for me but a fall-until-your-butt-hurts for him. HAH!
the pains of learning to blade. we've yet to redeem our 2nd hour so i'll guarantee pictures the next time round.

spent the weekend buying stuff, twister, food &alcohol for the chalet &the long awaited monday came :D

arrived there, pretty small but big enough, nice place, loud music blaring from the speakers, tried to study, couldn't &took a walk around the place instead, huge swimming pool (i was aching for a tan), lazed around, started the fire (we cooked food using a frying pan over the bbq pit), wasn't so bad, had to cool everyone off so out came the 300water bombs we prepared in the afternoon. i tell you, ULTIMATE CHAOS!

running &screaming, water bombs flying EVERYWHERE & i was in the midst of it all trying to take pictures and my camera got a little drenched but it's working fine! (:

it'd better be or i would have cursed myself for not sending in the warranty card yet. heh!
everyone took turns to shower, interesting experience for me (HAH!), chilled around &ate instant noodles before everyone slowly turned in. couples in one room &the rest in the other.
woke up in the morning, went to school for business accounting lecture, studied for 3hours, went back to the chalet, cooked dinner (using a portable gas stove courtesy of alvin khoo) &we finally had proper edible food that won't make us lose any hair. HEH!
showered &changed in time for the "guests" to come. turnout wasn't as many as we expected but we still had a hell of a party, i swear.

thanks to chungyin, melvin, farhan, russell, gabbie, andrea, baoyi &zy for coming :D

learnt a new game, drank a bit &too many shots after that, i was WASTED. couldn't remember much after that.
just bits &pieces here and there. all i know that being wasted is sheeeeer agony!
took me a whole day to recover &thank God just in time for today's paper. haha.
i do hope i'll pass. don't want to retake accounting.
it sucks, big time & i'm keeping my fingers crossed that tomorrow's weather will be fine! i need a tan!
oh, and the moon is full tonight. i miss star gazing &shooting stars (:

you got to be
out of your mind
you got to be
the best thing ever in my life.

i never could love you enough.

crying shame

2008-03-14T14:22:00.050+08:00

first &for most! happy belated 18th birthday, benedict tan! :D

i'm sorry i couldn't join you guys yesterday but i hoped the "cake" with m &m's and the 18shots at midnight were good enough. heh!

i hope you're not suffering from any side effects after the fall. haha.

and so, yesterday was another day to remember in our 10-year book. organized a primary school gathering at pasir ris park but because of the craaaazy weather, we headed to my place after buying the food from ntuc.

deborah brought her grill &broiler to cook the food with & i'm elated to say that yesterday was a success! although my house is a tad to small but heck!

we like the cozy-ness (:

turnout was AAAAAWESOME! many many faces that we haven't seen in a loooooong time.

it was fun catching up, talking about primary school days, asking who's attached &all, and most importantly, guessing who's who! some had trouble recognising faces & i'd to get our primary 6class photo out and before you know it, we were all laughing at each other's "kukoo-ness".

gosh, i love them! mr victor pok rushed from work after he heard who was there.

haaaaaa... it so nice to reunite &see how much we've grown over the years. cleaning up was a breeze &then the remaining who were there headed to pasir ris park to drink &continue the "party".

it nice to sit around &just be with each other since it's soooo once in a blue moon. played 7up, indian poker &the drinking game and some of us got tipsy.

it's the first time i went drinking with them & i swear it's an hilarious affair. and to sum it all up, yesterday will be another memorable black &white photograph in our heads when we look back 10years later (:

it's such a tired game
how will this all play out

out of sight, out of mind.

by now we should know.

the truth

2008-03-11T23:52:00.003+08:00

i hate the weather. rained the whole day.
on &off showers. pfffft.
plans for east coast were ruined. shall try our luck tomorrow after tuition.
hopefully the weather won't be as sucky. and it'd better not rain on thursday or i'll hibernate at home for the rest of the holidays.

and i've collected all these thoughts

and i'm dying just to lose them

and if your words are true or not

i'll die trying to prove them.

but i'll just have to accept.

to love somebody

2008-03-10T01:24:00.003+08:00

teehee! i got this in green at the IT fair today :D

squeezing the jostling crowds &perspiring was all worth it. i FINALLY have a digital camera of my own &this spells trouble.
HAH! snippity snap snap snap!
anyway, the past week of holidays has been exhausting? did the usual things like giving tuition &going out with R.
he has been doing some excessive shopping. new this &new that.
tsktsk! he's more like a girlfriend.
HEH! caught daphne khoo &andrea hamilton, from australia, on saturday.
awesome awesome. it's the mosaic music festival week!
free concerts at the nokia powerhouse this WHOOOOOOOLE week! so be sure to check out international bands if you've the time (:

sooooooo, i've to go to bed in 26minutes so that i'll have 8hours of sleep. haven't been getting more than 56hours of sleep the entire week because of re-roofing going on in my block.
pfffffffffffft. the government should really stop construction throughout singapore.
it's sooooooo "not nice". it's my holidays, hellooooooooo!!
can't a polytechnic student sleep in when she has the chance to? sheeeeeeeesh!
got to start studying for the supplementary papers tomorrow. bleeeeeah!
i can't wait for the chalet to come. the holidays are boooooooring.

oh well, at least i've a day at east coast with him & a BBQ with my primary schoolmates to look forward to this week :D

i want my life to be lived with you.

tonight &the rest of my life

2008-03-08T02:02:00.002+08:00

"i love you because you are the only person that has the ability to give me emotion, whether it be bad or good. you're the only person that can upset me.
the only person that can make me happy. the only person that can devastate me.
nobody has that ability, and for that, i love you."

"you're the painting that i keep running back to study. every time i look at you, something is different &even within a masterpiece, there are minor mistakes.
you’re the painting that i’m always drawn to, that always captures me. in this painting, my life is the world that engulfs me &you're the colors.
without your colors, my life would be empty. no matter what, i'll always return to take one more glance and let our world take me over.”

tongue tied

2008-03-03T00:10:00.002+08:00

the paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers. wider freeways but narrower viewpoints.
we spend more but have less. we buy more but enjoy it less.

we've bigger houses &smaller families. more conveniences but less time.
we've more degrees but less sense. more knowledge but less judgement.
more experts but more problems. more medicine but less wellness.

we drink too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much &pray too seldom. we talk too much, love too seldom &hate too often.

we've learned how to make a living but not a life. we've added years to life, not life to years.

we've been all the way to the moon &back but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor.

we've conquered outer space but not inner space. we've done larger things but not better things.

we've cleaned up the air but polluted the soul. we've split the atom but not our prejudice.

we write more but learn less. we plan more but accomplish less.

we've learned to rush but not to wait. we've higher incomes but lower morals.

we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever but have less communication. we've become long on quantity but short on quality.

these are the days of two incomes but more divorce. fancier houses but broken homes.

these are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one night stands, overweight bodies &pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. where are we heading?

tonight

2008-03-01T14:17:00.016+08:00

the dreaded exams are finally over but supplementary papers here i come! i'm sure i'd have to retake marketing fundamentals &bussiness accounting because i skipped that paper.

HEH. in fact, i'm preeetty sure many others skipped that paper too.

looks like i'll be spending the first half of my holidays studying for that 2papers :x

anyway, studying paid off for all the papers except marketing. almost nothing i studied came out for the paper.

so most of my answers were either incomplete or not done at all. major screwup.

i left like after 30min. HAH!

oh, our fourth month went by too. it actually slipped my mind but i remembered in the evening &hopefully managed to "salvage" it somehow *crinkles nose*

on thursday, when we were suppose to be taking our accounting paper, we were at the doctors' getting MC. ahaha.

met R at tampines interchange &headed to holland drive for lunch. yes, aaaaaaaaaall the way to the west.

have been wanting to bring him to this particular place for lasagne that i heard over the radio a few months back. i was expecting the place to have really nice ambience &all but what a disappointment.

it was just an italian "restaurant" the size of a bubble tea shop with nice interior design but inflated prices. apparently, a slice of pizza, in the shape of a square, is $4.50

but we still had the long anticipated beef &chicken lasagne. enjoyable enough but nothing like what we expected.

went to the cathay to get tickets for "the leap years" for yesterday's show. decided to view the greek exhibition thingy at the national museum of singapore but we'd to pay &we didn't feel like spending.

figured the other galleries had free admission but noooooooooo, still must pay. HEH!

so we took pictures instead. really nice interior design, really old schoooool.

we'll go back another day to view the exhibitions &take photos with the window, R! i promise i'll let you see the afro private hair on those statues :D

went over to the singapore arts museum to view "ben se"(?) or primary colours but must pay too. baaaaaaah!

yes, now you know how budget we are. HAH!

we'll do all those when i get my pay on tuesday (:

so we walked down to city hall &rested at marina square's macdonalds. had dinner, went over to esplanade's rooftop &just lazed around until 9ish before taking the bus back.

and so friday came &what better way to "celebrate" a leap year than by watching "the leap years"! went to school in the morning to submit my MC &headed to dhouby ghaut to meet him.

one word to describe the movie - spectacular? it is THE best local movie EVER.

and how it is related to literature &stuff like that just makes it all so much more meaningful. i was crying like a leaking water tap xD

and not forgetting to mention that "jeremy", the lead actor, is sooo HAWT! teehee!

had lunch before going over to marina square again to enquire stuff at the armed forces career experience. choices &decisions to make, young man!

lethargic tired lethargic. came back to pasir ris &made a spontaneous decision to "camp" at pasir ris park.

watched "road trip" &just waste the night away. morning came &we were stranded there because it was pouring.

drip leak drip. miniature puddles of water were forming in the tent.

we emerged at 12pm, headed home, showered &ate. SHIOK ONLY!

i love such random days :D

and oh! my father's getting me tickets to catch "queen the muscial" :D

his sudden acts of generosity these days are becoming freaky but who cares! i get to watch a muscial again after 6years?

the last musical was "fame"! and it was awesome.

i caaaaaaaannot wait (:

i remember the times we spent together

on those nights

we had a million questions

all about our lives.

i wish you were here with me.

you could be happy

2008-02-17T21:11:00.003+08:00

damn, plans to study today has not been carried out. instead, i've been watching the o.c. ever since i woke up.

and i've only managed to watch 10episodes from season 1! addictiiive!!
who cares if the o.c. was so last summer. i'm bored out of my skull.
sinful sinful sunday. sheer lazing around &feeding the tummy.

shall study doubly hard tomorrow :x

you could be happy

i hope you are

you made me happier than i'd been by far

somehow everything i own smells of you

and for the tiniest moment it's all not true.

i loved the way he said "you're beautiful".

inevitable

2008-02-16T23:21:00.014+08:00

okayy so i'm 2days late. blogging with internet explorer just sucks.

posting pictures is really a chore and i feel like doing chores now. so yes, i shall update.

went to school on valentine's for 2hours. headed over to R's after that &awaited surprise number 1.

NUTELLA BANANA UMBRELLA! (or was it nutella umbrella banana :x)

anyway, those were the ingredients &decoration used. i'll leave it up to your imagination on how he presented it.

didn't get a picture of it because

1. i was too shocked.

2. it was already melting!

got changed &took a train to the cathay to catch p.s. i love you! surprise number 2!

awwwwwesome movie! have been wanting to catch it ever since i saw the poster in december-ish?

i love you for cleverly getting tickets in advance :D

took a bus to cineleisure after the movie to get his "present" but they were out of brownies. so i'd to settle with what was in the window.

got him m &m cookies, "i love you" cupcake &"be mine" brownie.

took another bus to downtown east &waited for surprise number 3. i admit i was feeling moody for some reason.

sorry R! didn't mean to scare you.

he left halfway &asked me to stay where i was. shortly after, he called &asked me to walk towards the beach.

hell, i hate suspense. bumped into emill along the way &headed to pit 18.

and there they were! lighting sparklers....

so basically, 4couples (R, lihao, hairyson, yilong &the dates) had their valentine's dinner at pasir ris &the food was edib-ly BBQed by the guys.

RONALD!! you were kissing the wrong person!!

gay day is not until God-knows-when :D

funny thing was, emill was allergic to BBQ food AND prawns. tsktsk hairy!

you should do your homework next time, man ;)

so we mingled, got a little cosy, played with fire &anything we could lay our hands on. cleared the pit &left before midnight.

and i got a dozen this year :D

thank you, sweetheart! and the perfume too (just when i'm about to run out of mine).

he stayed over &left around 7am (:

mised school. met him after that &took a bus to one fullerton to study.

let the nerding begin! :D

went swimming/ tanning at downtown east today &he came over after that.

studied &watched benchwarmers. more studying tomorrow!

gosh! i'm such a nerd, sometimes.

soooooooooo, to sum up the week - FANTABULOUS! :D

birthday was awesome. valentine's was beyond expectations.

i love how you didn't make things so cliche yet keeping the meaning of valentine's (:

it's a pity we didn't take any pictures. HEH!

i want to break every clock

the hands of time could never move again

we could stay in this moment for the rest of our lives

is it over now?

i want to be your last first kiss.

M + M's

2008-02-13T00:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!! :D

thank God school is until 11am tomorrow. looong day ahead.

R has stuff up his sleeves already. suspense suspense!!

anyway.. 2days ago was my 18th birthday! i'm freaking legal :D

not that it makes any difference. i just HADD to say that.

a big big BIG thank you to all those who celebrated my birthday with me! you guys made it the best i've ever had!

R came over at stroke of midnight &surprised me at the void deck with a cake from chocz (:

thank you for the cake &the birthday song (although it took you a lot of guts to do it). hugs &kisses, sweetheart!

after school, we went to blk 201 to satisfy my looooong craving for youtiao! HAH!

went back to school to pass chungyin a slice of my cake. met melvin &russell and they all found out that it was my birthday.

LOL. like not slow, not slow.

was told to meet them at 7pm in pasir ris so R and i went to town to catch a movie - sweeney todd. it's a sick musical!

reallyyyyyyy fake blood spilling everywhere. the blood looks like ketchup!

i don't know how to rate the show but it made me feel like puking somehow. so go figure!

took a train back to pasir ris where chungyin &melvin were waiting &drove to downtown east. russell &bhavna were already there.

walked around for awhile before leading me to hei sushi :D

they even reserved tables! GOSH!

they actually did that on such notice. i feel loved.

so farhan, leng, mudd, alvin khoo &tan, hairyson &emill joined us for dinner. after that we packed ourselves into the 2cars &raced to pasir ris park.

with windows down &music blasting at maximum volume, i swear it was the car ride of my life. hahaha.

and then came the surprise. mask on, covered eyes, led to a bench, silence, pulpitating heartbeat, singing of a birthday song, uncovered eyes, R with a cake in front of me, made a wish, blew the candles, whistle blown, party poppers popped, cake cut, creamy mouths, pictures taken.

boy, was i basking in a sea of love (:

then we went to play at the playground. spider web, flying fox (that's what chungyin calls it), ufo (what russell calls it) &this music making thingy.

and the best thing was... we didn't need alcohol to get high! spinning works!

so basically, these people made my day, seriously. thank you oh-so-much!

oh yes! a big shout-out to those who left me a comment &messaged me :D

you and i should get away for a while

i just want to be alone with your smile

buy some candy &we'll get in my car

we'll blast the stereo &drive to madagascar.

because when i'm with you.

you light up my life

2008-02-12T01:11:00.001+08:00

so many nights, i'd sit by my window
waiting for someone to sing me his song
so many dreams, i kept deep inside me

alone in the dark, but now you've come along

and you light up my life
you give me hope to carry on
you light up my days
and fill my nights with song.

2008-02-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! :D

i love you, R.

chase you down

2008-02-11T01:46:00.000+08:00

they all seem to think i live the good life
while they labor for their daily bread
but while they're sleeping soundly on their mattresses of hay

i'm pacing, restless, around this feather bed

they all seem to think i live the good life
and wish they could somehow trade theirs for mine
but we all carry our own brand of burden
some weigh heavy upon our backs, others on our minds.

fashion hour

2008-02-09T14:05:00.000+08:00

boooooo!! i can't wait for this long holiday to be over ):

all i've done the past 2days is watch movies on tv &the internet and play games from shockwave.com
man, i feel pathetic. LOL.
mummy was kind enough to compensate for not visiting by giving me a fat ang pao. fattest so far.
R was also sweet enough to come over after visiting his paternal side on day 1. watched juno over the internet before heading to esplanade for his "surprise" which turned out to be fireworks :D

we didn't exactly get a perfect view but we were damn close. i actually saw the fireworks being shot out and i was so afraid (by God-knows-what) that it didn't occur to me to take out the camera.

HAHA! hung around before taking 70back to hougang.

met him yesterday night &hitched a ride from chungyin before going over to melvin's. one &only house i'll visit this year.
which means one &only ang pao (excluding my mum's). heh.
the usual people were there. exchanged greetings, hung around &played blackjack.
didn't get any pictures because i didn't have batteries for the camera. i need a proper digital camera but yours' just fine (don't get me wrong)!
i swear my luck this year's awwwesome! got 21dian 3times-ish &won 9bucks from in between :D

looks like i'm going to be a lucky girl this year. and i dare say that since october last year, luck has been coming my way.

i think it's because of you ;)

grrr! i want to get out of the house!!!
i haven't seen the sun for 2days. i hate being stuck at home.

my lips were writing cheques my heart couldn't cash

because it was empty with nothing but your memories

your perfect smile and innocent eyes

i'm sorry that you feel this way.

i'm sorry for taking up space.

the best

2008-02-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

oh God. i'm turning 18 soonnnn!! :D

and it's chinese new year yet again. i hate chinese new year especially when i don't go visiting ):

and that is what is going to happen this year. no reunion dinner &visiting.

pffffft! my mum's going to sentosa tomorrow and i'm just going to stay home.

probably movie my day away &get fat on food. anyway, the week has been rather pleasant.

all the projects are done with. 1week of rest before i've to start studying for the exams.

caught giantsmustfall on friday. went over to NAFA's open house on saturday to watch threewaystreet acoustic sets.

had french role play today. we're going to pass french!
holy crappp. we pass french.
HAH! hopefully there's sun tomorrow.

shall go tan!! :D

on a perfect day

somewhat like today

we will find each other there

somewhat like the night we first met.

we can't forget the way i loved you.

passing by

2008-01-31T00:25:00.000+08:00

and i thought the phase of anonymous people tagging on people's board saying mean stuffs was over. i find it so eff-ing entertaining especially when they speak like twits!

living proof

2008-01-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

organisational behaviour was good. presentation went well.

at least we got the class laughing. hah.

kind of a rough day after that but everything's great now, R. you're still the best!

missed class today but attended lecture. headed off for tuition after that.

came down to find him sitting &waiting for the past 90min. suspense suspense suspense all the way to tampines.

i swear he's been acting weird for the past 2days. and the surprise was that he wanted to take me to watch 27dresses! :D

chick flickkkk! thank you so much, R!

i know you know how badly i wanted to watch it. heh.

it was AWWWESOME! felt pretty long but awesome.

typical but awesome. and the song "like a star", haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... perfection (:

i love your little gestures of love.

hold me now as my world crashes down

can't you see that they push me away

hear that sound as our time's running out

if you give me the chance.

i'll make you believe everything.

never ending story

2008-01-27T15:23:00.000+08:00

the 2 tests are done with. 1 more project to go and i can finally breathe easy.
friday night/ saturday morning was one word: MAGICAL. had a comical start to the night.
we had trouble with the tent &took a whole hour to get it fixed. but all was fantastic.

picture this:
a moonlit sky with twinkling stars up above. the gentle wind blowing playfully at her hair & a tingly feeling through her body.
a blue tent, good for 4, quaintly placed under a coconut tree. and she thought she was in a fairytale where everything's so surreal.
and as she lay at the entrance of the tent, gazing at the stars, she heard a familiar strum - one from an acoustic. then her eyes met his &all she heard was a serenading voice.
song after song which lyrics hold deep meaning, she hummed along &tapped her fingers to the beat as they transported themselves into a different realm.
when the last chord was played, a teardrop rolled down the side of her face.
a sigh that said thank you, a hug that meant "i'm the luckiest girl in the world" and a kiss to seal his lips with "i love you."
lying beside him, gazing into those eyes that seem to read her so well &having random talks.
occasional silences where they both laid just listened to the rustling of leaves &the splashing of water. soon the laughter died down &all that was heard was a slow, soothing breathing.
she turned to her side &watched his chest rise and fall in time with his breathing and slowly drifted off to sleep. the perfect end to a perfect night &everything was awesome (:

waking up to cheering students &the beating of drums - what a way to start the day. despite the noise, he lay sleeping like an infant.
stepped out &inhaled the fresh air which said "today's going to be a good day." sat on the grass &waited until their bodies were willing to move before they packed up.

and with belongings slung over their shoulders &her hands in his, they walked off to start a new day, a whole day to themselves.

okaaaay... so that was it. haha.
been awhile since i did something descriptive. went home, got changed &headed out to town.
was suppose to go for "fasten your seatbelt" to catch threewaystreet but we decided to skip that. i'm so sorry guys!
so we took a look at the flea market but didn't get anything. i wasn't feeling the spending mood.
walked over to ngee ann city &had lunch/ dinner at pepper lunch. his first!
sat around the open area of ngee ann city until we decided to go over to the esplanade. reached there in time for the performance at powerhouse - little black book.

the pop-jazz band was great! played songs like umbrella, just the two of us, L.O.V.E, sunday morning etc.
so basically we spent the rest of our day sitting at the waterfront, listening to pop-jazz &people-watched. the lack of plans or places to go didn't bother us.
"i've you &you've me and it's like we both have each other" - quote. HAHAHAHAH! :D

p.s. iloveyou, priceless.

turn around, look at what you see in her face

the mirror of your dreams make believe i'm everywhere

living in the lines written on the pages is the answer to our neverending story

reach the stars, fly a fantasy dream &what you see will be.

there upon the rainbow is the answer to our neverending story.

from heart &soul to pen and paper

2008-01-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

macroeconomics presentation was today. finally, one down.

2 more project submissions to go. hell, this week is going to be a crazy week.

2 tests coming up on thursday &friday. pffffffffft.

well, at least last saturday was a relaxing one. tanning with sary! :D

went home &napped. out to city hall on sunday for meetups &all.

i CANNOT wait for this weekend to come but still, i'm in dilemma. sheesh.

shall take each day as it comes.

all these bottled up emotions

well inside my head

feelings never felt before

makes me wonder.

go away so i can see you near me.

always you

2008-01-16T22:57:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling a tinch of vertigo. a certain kind of high.
it's making me lose balance. i should see a doctor soon.

we're broken

2008-01-16T22:07:00.001+08:00

your love is a fast song
and i'm dancing because i'm loved again
my heart is in motion
for the rhythm inside you
your love is a slow song
it's resounding through my world again
my heart is in motion

for the song inside of you.

the way she feels

2008-01-16T17:04:00.000+08:00

she's upset
bad day
heads for the dresser drawer to drive her pain away
nothing good can come of this

she opens it there's nothing
thereis only left over tears
mom &dad had no right she screams
as the anger runs down both of her cheeks

then she closed her eyes
and found relief in a knife
the blood flows as she cries
all alone the way she feels

left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
bite the lip just forget the bleeding
curled up shes on the floor
relief left her she had hoped for something more from it
he leans down to comfort her
she is weeping
and he wraps his arms around

the deeper you cut
the deeper i hurt
the deeper you cut
it only gets worse

now she's slowly opening new eyes
then she opened her eyes
and found relief through his life
and put down her knives

then she opened her life
and found relief through his eyes
and put down
she put down her life.

these are the nights

2008-01-13T17:50:00.000+08:00

the weekend is soon to be over &yet another mundane week to go through. the school week goes by pretty fast though.
soon it'll be the semestral exams. pfffft.
i'm only looking forward to the holidays after that. haha.

got back most of my results. did better for most of them than i'd anticipated.

hopefully i can maintain that. lol.

TP open house started on thursday. many many many TONNES of immature faces.

sheeeesh. kids these days just don't look their age :x

daphne's surprise party on friday at melvin's condo was awesome. i love love LOVE surprises.

haven't had a birthday surprise in my life before. i wonder what it'd be like if i got one... anyway, a handful of us were high &that included me :D

the security guard chased us out of the condo because "residents are complaining". went to the nearby playground &the police came twice.

LOL. it's very impossible, really, to tell teenagers who have been drinking to keep their volume down.

anyway, many left for home at 4am &the remaining 4of us headed to the 24h coffeeshop for late late late supper.

thank you hairy, emill &ronald for tolerating with my constant blabbering at the coffeeshop. at least i was entertaining!

yesterday was a slow saturday. headed to town with intentions of getting his ipod repaired &hitting the flea market.

but he didn't get it repaired because it'd cost $300. apple's out to burn people's wallets.

tsktsk! didn't get anything from the flea market because it was threatening to rain, nothing caught my eye & i simply wasn't in the mood for shopping.

probably still having a minor hangover. LOL.

went back to hougang for a house viewing. WE LOVE IT :D

but there's a problem now. my tenant might not be joining us in the new house.

and my mum can't afford $1.6k on her own. shoot!

i really like that place. hopefully we'll find someone to join us or we'd just have to look for a smaller place.

i'm keeping my fingers so tightly crossed.

because these are the nights that you know when you’re there

you couldn’t have planned it much better i swear

and you hope that your senses aren’t failing you now

and you think to yourself now i could be wrong.

i might have just stolen this scene from a song.

words

2008-01-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

the irony of life.

like how i'm suppose to be rushing through an assignment which needs to be handed in tomorrow but i'm here blogging instead. the irony of how i find the world so wonderful but there's war &hatred in everyone's lives.

or how there are millions fighting to stay alive but foolish souls who want to end their lives so badly. the irony of how a female wants to look like a guy &vice versa.

sheeeeeeeeeeesh!! an everyday irony of "why is life unfair?" &the common answer or MY answer would be "life's never fair."

but hell, WHY IS LIFE SO EFF-ING UNFAIR?

nothing has ever gone right since i became a teenager. broken family; pretending for years that we're alright.

bickering, fist fights, name calling, swearing, late night squabbles, unwanted pregnancies &it's all finally coming to an end. why the hell did they wait so long to finally decide to get an eff-ing divorce!?

they should have just spared each other's, my &sister's agony. the poor girl has to go through shit from the age of 3.

fuck! (trying really hard to stick to my new year's resolution here)

and boy, are women irritating. old women.

women above the age of 40. i seriously wonder what's going on in their mind.

their brains need oiling. i swear i'm going to look at this post 22years later &laugh my wrinkles off.

december - helped to look for a house; too early. now - "you're not helping me at all. don't bother to help pack; don't bother to help look for a house"; fuck it laaaaa, just what do you want from me?

i've projects, money issues AND i'm clear to the fact that we've to move out on the first week of february! so don't tell me i'm not of any help!

i'm studying &earning my own keep. the both of you should be happy that i'm not some spoilt bitch that doesn't want to work &expects allowance from struggling parents every month.

GOSH! how i wish a rock would just fall on their heads so that they'll WAKE UP!

rwaaaaaaaaaaaar~!!!~! you know what's the ONE thing that went right in my life?

my friends &every loved one who made life much easier to get by. without them, i'd be nothing.

this night just like the rest

these same thoughts running through my head

the same reckless phrase with a different face

they say that i'm worthless.

but i'm not listening.

i believe

2008-01-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

i have thought of my new year's resolutions :D

and it's only 53minutes until the first day of the year is over. i ought to be shot.
i'm blogging instead of doing my projects. pffffft.
i'm soooo not prepared for school to start. not just yet.

so here goes:

1. love my miracle much much more!
2. love my friends even more
3. exercise at least twice a week!
4. get a job
5. only A & Bs for studies (hell, i'd have to study)

6.cherish my miracle (:
7. try not to be late/ skip classes!
9. find a suitable home for mummy &sister
10. be a better daughter, girlfriend, friend
11. never stop smiling! :D
12. get my motorbike license
13. save up &go on a holiday with friends/ loved one
14. i'll TRY not to sigh so often!
15. spread more love around
16. make everyone around me happy
17. have fun everyday! :D

18. don't swear!

19. ensure that my friends enjoy life &live each day to their best
20. STICK TO MY RESOLUTIONS! :D

dance inside

2008-01-01T18:26:00.001+08:00

happy 2008!!! :D

it's a new year, finally. out with the bad &in with the good.
throw away all bad habits &live life different. TRY to stay by your new year's resolutions.
i haven't really thought of my new year resolutions yet. ahaha.
they'll just come along the way, hopefully. i know one resolution is to exercise at least 2times a week xD

so... went to the esplanade with the usual company to countdown &caught the fireworks. this year's one was 8minutes long, apparently.

it was spectacular. especially when you watch it in the arms of someone special (:

AND NOT FORGETTING THE OTHER LOVED ONES! :D

thank you EVERYONE who made 2007 an awesome year &three cheers to a wonderful 2008! friends are definitely the best-est thing that God has ever given me &YOU are a miracle (:

as usual, town was crowded! new year's crowd &all.
wanted to take 10to bedok but the bus never seem to came so we took a train instead. cabbed from there to east coast to meet melvin &co. at sunset bay.

how nostalgic! the hugging, wishing, smiling, singing, dancing, drinking, joking, laughing &puking *nudges ronald*

ahahha. i hope you're alright now!

although you're still fast asleep -.-

you've to wake up &do your project, dude! no more sleeping, man.
came home at 9am &slept for 6hours. thank God i wasn't wasted.
haaaaaaaaaaaaa...!!! it's a new year.
i wonder what 2008 will bring. another miracle?
maybe. nobody knows (:

you don't have to move &speak
lips for biting
you're staring me down, a glance makes me weak
eyes for striking.

now i'm twisting up when i'm twisted with you.

the high road

2007-12-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

harrison's chalet was somewhat a success uh. despite the minor hiccups here &there, i do hope everyone had a great time.

from the time we checked in until 11pm, it was just the usual group of us. lazing around, cycling, playing cards, watching tv, blasting club beats on speakers etc.
then we played 7up again while waiting for mel &co. to arrive. eyeliner's the shit yo!
it's a good game to play when there's nothing to do. it involves everyone, gets everyone's brains working &gets everyone laughing.
mel &co. came &the drinking began. played indian poker, 7up &the drinking game.
brandon, alvin tan &lihao were wasted. alvin khoo was on the brink but thank God he didn't.
then another group of people arrived, got 2more bottles of whiskey &they drank until dawn. booze party yo!
tried to sleep until 10am, checked out, headed home, showered, ate &slept! shiok only!
crap laaaaaaaaaa.. have yet to start on my projects. PFFT!
last few days to chiong. and there's still countdown.
pang sai! they shouldn't assign projects during such a short holiday.
it's suicide for the kids la! freeeeak... the holidays passed too fast.

i gave you my heart
i gave you my soul
i gave everything that i had
but you left me in the cold.

still i've faith.

because of you

2007-12-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

happy boxing day! :D

10more days of christmas to go! hahaha.
off to meet siti later at 1pm to pass her her christmas present &harrison's chalet in the evening. hopefully the chalet will be a blast!
went to catch national treasure: book of secrets after tuition. it truly is worth watching.
kind of da vinci code-ish. really really cool.
walked down to esplanade to catch king kong jane but due to the slight drizzle, the show was postponed. booooooooooooooooo!!

got gift #2 today (:

thank sooooooooo uberly much! there's already enough sweetness in this love we share.
the chocolates are just plain fattening! HEH.

you're trying to make me become like you! :D

whatever it is, it's really sweet of you but i'll look for you if any of my tooth needs to be extracted or if i again weight!! i love you, baby (:

i used to walk home all alone
it used to be so sad
i used to be all by myself
it used to be so bad.

i'm as happy as can be.

bruises

2007-12-26T03:39:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS AGAIN :D

christmas this year was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay awesome! never had i've so much fun before.
nearly died of laughter. ahahaha.
met up with the guys in town &headed to marina square. had dinner at cafe cartel.

my FIRST time! and probably my last.
i was sooooooooooo freaking bloated after that! shared black pepper ribs, tic-tac-toe platter &oreo frappe with ronald.

uberly filling but yummaaaaaaaaay! (:

gave them their presents. handmade cups.
APPARENTLY, THE PAINT COMES OFF. pffffffffffft!
and i even asked the lady at spotlight if it would run but she said it wouldn't. HELL!

my christmas gifts - wasted ):

it's okay! it's the thought that counts.
hope you guys liked it. heh.
took 133 &headed to haji lane for shisha! i remembered to bring the camera this time! :D

played cards, shisha-ed, ate chicken "sheesh" kebab, played stress, heart attack, 7up, 6up, 4up & 3up. aahhahahha.
GOSH! you've to be there to know how hard we laughed.

everytime a person says the wrong number or was too slow, i'd use my eyeliner &draw on them. guess what the end result was? :D

hilarious, i tell you! overall, we'd a fantastic time!
and there wasn't any alcohol! AWWWESOME!

thank you alvin khoo aka girlfriend, alvin tan, benedict, harrison, lihao, lucas &sweetheart for making this year's christmas a memorable one!! many many many more christmas to come! (:

i turn off the lights
so you can't see my eyes
my fingers are crossed
while i promise the world to you.

i feel like i'm walking on air.

white christmas

2007-12-25T13:26:00.001+08:00

what do you call people who are afraid of santa claus?

claustrophobic!!!! :D
ahahahhaha.

let it snow

2007-12-25T12:33:00.000+08:00

merry christmas everyone! (:

it's christmas alright but i'm not sure if it's merry. at times like this, i wish my family was normal.
like any other family. i can't recall when my family has ever celebrated a holiday together.
i can't even recall the last time we sat down &had a meal together. pffft.
i'm definitely not feeling the christmas spirit now. my tenants are having lunch with each other &friends but my mum and i are in the room, making phone calls back to philippines.
i wish i was back in philippines. the last time i spent christmas there, 4 years back, was awesome.

sighhh.. i miss family warmth &togetherness ):

the weather outside is frightful
but the fire is so delightful
and since we've no place to go
let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

all the way home, i'll be warm.

bet it all

2007-12-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

it's christmas eve! and the moon is LOVELY!

gooooooooosh. unfortunately, it's not how i thought i'd be spending it.
sigh. anyway, the past 2days have been rather eventful.
went to catch caracal &daphne khoo at esplanade yesterday. they were awesome awesome.

she has improved tremendously. put on a little weight though.
HEH. sorry harrison! xD

hung around the waterfront and planned for christmas. got spot checked by passing policemen and an unfortunate turn of events happened.
shan't go any further. gave tution today in the afternoon.
headed to town after that and was brought on a shopping spree. was given the liberty to choose which present i wanted.

thanks alot, sweetheart (:

took 5 back to pasir ris &another unfortunate turn of events happened. sigh-ness.

this is soooooooooo not how i wanted christmas eve to be ):

now i'm regretting for speaking my mind. sometimes, i should just shut my trap &stop being so straightforward and speak openly of my feelings.
i'm sorry, baby. i'll make it up to you tomorrow.

i promise!

somehow i never saw the signs
i put all my trust in painted lines
now all my stories sound the same
and i've got no one else to blame.

i poured out my heart when no one was listening.

won't stop

2007-12-23T01:36:00.000+08:00

girls' day out with one of my favourite girls, sary yesterday :D

it's been aeons aeons AEONS since we went out. headed to town for lime flea market.
walked around town looking for stuff to get. caught up on stuff &basically just enjoyed each other's company.

God, i love this girlfriend of mine (:

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! 2MORE DAYS!!
i can't wait to give everyone their presents &maybe, i'd get some in return too. heh.

even if i don't, i'd still love the season of giving :D

now i stared at you
from across the room
until both my eyes were faded
i was in a rush.

i was out of luck.

almost lover

2007-12-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

it feels good to be pursued every once in a while.

passenger seat

2007-12-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

i roll the window down
and then begin to breathe in
the darkest country road
and the strong scent of evergreen

from the passenger seat as you are driving me home

then looking upwards
i strain my eyes &try
to tell the difference between shooting stars &satellites
from the passenger seat as you are driving me home

"do they collide?"
i ask &you smile
with my feet on the dash
the world doesn't matter

when you feel embarrassed then i'll be your pride
when you need directions then i'll be the guide
for all time.

another sleepless night
i'm still staring at the ceiling
i can hear him fighting
with her for no reason.

if i'd my way.

break the ice

2007-12-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

exams are over! holidays are here! :D

3 weeks break. hell... not much time to do much :x

anyway, papers were good except for business accounting. oh well, shall just enjoy my holidays.
worry about results when school reopens. heh.
went swimming with alvin on friday at ronald's. we were trying to get a tan but rain clouds came after 5minutes.
PFFT. went over to bugis to shop &have mango tango!

headed to marina square's mango to buy this tube which was $5 off the usual price :D

met up the rest of the guys &headed to haji lane for shisha! yilong, khalifah &their other friends were already there.
got grape shisha &let the underage shisha-ing begin! i've no idea what effect shisha has on a person's body but none of us was exactly high except for lucas who kept smiling to himself :x

had dinner at bugis before walking to clarke quay to drink. what a way to celebrate the end of exams uh.
ahaha. SHOOTING STAR SHOWER!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

experienced it EXACTLY 2months ago. and it happened yesterday again.
all of us saw at least one except for harrison &alvin. took nr 7back to pasir ris and BOOM, i was dead fast asleep when i got home.
swimming again later when i wake up!! i'm keeping my fingers crossed &hoping that it won't rain &that there'll be SUN!

i know it's been awhile
but i'm glad you came
and i've been thinking about
how you say my name.

i can't get enough.

afrodisiac

2007-12-13T00:28:00.001+08:00

i've been bitten by the love bug ;)

somebody's me

2007-12-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

it's a funny thing how i get attached to people so easily that i find myself being or try to be a significant part of their lives. probably it's so that i feel my existence worthwhile.
but somehow i feel that i get taken for granted. searched upon only when all else fails.
and when those i love have things on their minds, i try so hard to lighten their load but my efforts just go down the drain and i wonder to myself "why bother trying so hard? what will you gain from this?"
and i know the answer to this recurrent questions. i love you.
i love them, that's why. and only God knows how i beat myself down everytime i fail to get someone to smile.

gosh, i think i'm too hard on myself.

do you remember me
like i remember you?
do you spend your life
going back in your mind to that time?

i'm going through hell.

sweetheart

2007-12-11T22:56:00.001+08:00

deciphering you is not the easiest thing to do.

that's how love moves

2007-12-11T01:28:00.000+08:00

it's such a mystery
how you found something in me
that i never knew was there

but you uncovered it so easily

you turn me like the season
and i began to change
you wrapped your arms around me
now i'll never be the same

that's how love works
that's how love moves
like a river running through you

sometimes it lifts you high as Heaven

it consumes you
that's a given
that's how love moves.

i've seen walls that could never be broken.

it might be you

2007-12-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

i'm in the middle of a breakdown.
crap. i'm going to have puffy eyes tomorrow.

heaven

2007-12-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

all the emotions kept in this heart of hers, are finally spilling out. no one having an inkling on how much the strongest muscle in her body is aching.

thank God she has him by her side.

baby, you're all that i want.

a place in this world

2007-12-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

get me out of this place that was never a home >:(

hell! exams start tomorrow and i can't study in peace at home.
thank God i was hardworking enough and started on monday instead of "last minute hug buddha's leg". ahahahahha.
direct translation from this chinese idiom. my sister's annoying the crap out of me.
i don't care how cute or adorable she is. i'm on the verge of smacking her already.
the weekend has been awesome though. free drinks from starbucks on thursday was the bomb!
i think it's a really good idea. heh.

it would have been a bigger success at one fullerton if not for the rainy weather :x

we got hazelnut hot chocolate &peppermint mocha frappacino! :D

heavenly sin. sat there until 7ish trying very hard to study.
went over to esplanade's library on friday to study again. studying or trying to study on a friday's bad.
no matter how amount of concentration you try to put into memorising your notes, the number of information that enters the brain is MINIMAL. lol.

OH OH! do you know where santa clause comes from?
everyone thinks he's from the north pole but nooooooooooooooo. apparently, a group of REALLY BORED swedish geeks did some calculations &all involving the earth's demographics etc.
and they came up with a conclusion:

for santa clause to deliver presents to all the children around the world in one night, he has to the take the fastest route. and according to their findings, the fastest route involves him taking off from kazakhstan.
HENCE, SANTA CLAUSE LIVES IN KAZAKHSTAN TOGETHER WITH BORAT &NOT AT THE NORTH POLE WITH POLAR BEARS. ahahahahha.
he probably employ the elves &rudolph the red-nosed reindeer from the north pole only when christmas' drawing near xD

yesterday's flea market was awesome uh. everything were eff-ing cheap.

unforunately, nothing caught my eye ):

i only bought a pair of heart-shaped dangling earrings for $2. had prata &fries at pasir ris 24h coffee shop before heading to the beach to digest the oily oily food.
i'm soooooooooo going to swim every other day during the holidays. hopefully i'll get a tan too.
but judging from the weather, pfffffffffft. i hate rainy days.

i'm feeling the need to camwhore :x

and i miss my 2favourite girls.

i don't know what i want so don't ask me
because i'm still trying to figure it out
don't know what's down the road, i'm just walking
trying to see through the rain coming down.

eventhough i'm not the only one who feels the way i do.

i'm yours

2007-12-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

if you want a lover
i'll do anything you ask me to
and if you want another kind of love

i'll wear a mask for you

if you want a partner
take my hand
or if you want to strike me down in anger
here i stand

if you want a boxer
i'll step into the ring for you
and if you want a doctor

i'll examine every inch of you

and if you've got to sleep
a moment on the road, i'll steer for you
and if you want to walk the street alone

i'll disappear for you.

i can't believe it's over.

a beautiful lie

2007-12-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

and so we caught enchanted on thursday as planned. really nice show.
it's enchanting. HEH.
i like the chipmunk best. although it's computerised.
dined by the sea on friday. attended my mother's ex-colleague's wedding ceremony yesterday.

it was really sweet &magical (:

rushed off for threewaystreet's last performance for 2007 at scape. God knows when they'll perform together again.
it was superb as usual. i'm really going to miss them tonnes!
hung around town &headed home at 11. went over to st. james powerhouse this afternoon for the car boot flea market.

both of us got tops. shopped around vivo &managed to snag an awesome deal.
lucky you! stocked up on flexis :D

hung around at the open area of vivocity before heading home. it's back to school tomorrow with exactly 1week to study.
craaaaaaaap. i want the holidays to come!

i'm already in the christmas spirit!

lie awake in bed at night
and think about your life
do you want to be different?
try to let go of the truth.

i'm running around in circles, baby.

say it again

2007-11-27T00:14:00.000+08:00

today was the most incredibly fanastic day so far in this year :D

went through the usual routine of going to school, attending tutorials &lectures. had the HAWT lecturer today for french (:

headed to town after school to catch "enchanted". unfortunately, the tickets were selling fast &the other shows were too late.
shall catch it on... thursday when i get my pay! we'll catch it this time, promise!
had dinner at longjohnsilver instead. ever had LJS without tartar sauce before?
it's not gooooooooooood. what's LJS without tartar sauce?!

shitty shitty shang shang :x

took a walk down orchard road to digest dinner. couldn't help but take pictures of the christmas lights.

pretty lights fascinate me :D

I CANNOT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS TO COME! 1more month to go!
shall take more pictures when the day draws closer! 2weeks to mid-semester tests!

i've to start pulling up my socks.

why is it when i'm with you, nothing seems to matter. when we're in a crowed room, it seems like no one is there but us.
i was born to make you happy &that's what i'll do. i'll never doubt anything you say because i believe in you.
i'll always be by your side because i'm here to make you happy. no matter what circumstances there are, count on me because i love you.
God, it's amazing. i don't want this to end but if it came to the time, i'd still be your friend.
nothing's gonna change; not even through time. God, how i'd get so lucky?

iloveyoutruckloads, baby (:

you're the most perfect yet
most definitely that i've met
and i wonder if you know that's how i feel about you
i hope you know.

i've so much love for you.

sell my clothes, i'm off to heaven

2007-11-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

damn, i've to stop skipping lectures &tutorials. old habits are coming back.
went to giant &ikea on thursday to get flexis &photo frames. dined at changi village after that.
God, i've been having a huge appetite lately and i keep shitting after i eat. pfffffffffft.
what goes in MUST DEFINITELY come out huh. LOL.
went to catch threewaystreet along with other bands at EA just now. they kicked ass but the sound made them sound funny.

i think it's the emptiness of the place. there weren't many people there.
i was expecting it to be jam pack la. ahha.
but their chemistry &all were gooooooooooood. two thumbs up!

shall wait for their set at the youth park &maybe i'll raise both my toes too :D

at least i've something to look forward to for the whole of next week. that's the only thing i look forward to now - weekends.

there's a beautiful sky tonight
and if you were by my side then we could share it but you're gone
so come at me with your moon &burn me in the stars
because nothing matters anymore.

if i could only see you now for about an hour.

lycanthrope

2007-11-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

i didn't get the job from mooks! ):

went for the 2nd interview yesterday. at least i know i got shortlisted out of 50girls &managed to make the 6.
oh well.. shall just stick to giving tuition. LOL.

and riot boy! thank you soooo much for the sinful surprise :D

you're my sweetest sin.

i wake up at the end of a long, dark, lonely year
it's bringing out the worst in me
i hear your voice start breaking in fear
when the lights go down.

i still feel you looking over my shoulder.

teardrops on my guitar

2007-11-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

gosh! the weekend's over.
another mundane week to go through before the weekend comes again. friday was fun until night came.
there was CCN day. got balloons &sucked the helium from it and spoke in funny voices that sounded like chipmunks.
AHAHH. got polaroids taken.

i'm SOOOOOOOO going to get myself a polaroid camera :D

stayed back in school to catch sleeq &greatspyexperiment as they were performing at TPrawks. unfortunately, they didn't let any of the TP students in.
pffffffffffft! screwed up system.
waited until 7.30pm and i lost patience. so i headed home first.
heard there was a "riot" of some sort after that. and yesterday was saturday!!

LIME SONIC BANG WAS AWESOME! :D

met up at vivocity &headed to sentosa around 3pm. the show was delayed by 1hour so we didn't miss any bands.
sat around &soaked up the sun. caught bands like the pinholes, allura, westgrandboulevard, caracal, firefight, greatspyexperiment, shirlyn tan, plain sunset, a vacant affair, astroninja, johnny shambles &his minions, stars don't fall, saw losers, thaitanium etc.

THEY WERE SIMPLY THE BOMB! :D

you've no reason not to fall in love with the local music scene. there was the lime flea market there too but i didn't buy anything.
wasn't in the mood to shop but there was a booth giving tattoo &piercings. FREAKING HELL!
i was uberly tempted but no! i'll be patient &wait until the end of the year as planned.
stayed over until 7am. the night wasn't pleasant though.
i brought my tent over but we were too lazy to set it up. so we tried to sleep on the uncomfortable sand with the cold wind blowing.

not very nice :x

boy, was i glad to shower &snuggle up in my blanket when i got home. heh.
back to school tomorrow! mooks 2nd interview after that.

shall look forward to threewaystreet's last performance on saturday! (:

he talks to me, i laugh because it's damn funny
that i can't even see anyone when he's with me
he says he's so in love, he's finally got it right
i wonder if he knows he's all i think about at night.

he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.

i'd rather

2007-11-15T00:14:00.000+08:00

i'd rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else
i'd rather be beside you in a storm than safe &warm by myself
i'd rather have hard times together than to have it easy apart
i'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

i knew i loved you.

coffee shop soundtrack

2007-11-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

friday was mundane. yesterday was great.
headed to town to meet a girl who bought a top from me. no flea market! ):

i can't wait for lime sonic bang!! :D

bought stuff from far east plaza. got donuts from takashimaya before heading to NewUrbanMale.
went over to cineleisure where the lime sonic bang roadshow was on. caught summer's over &allura.

can i say it again?? I CANNOT WAIT FOR LIME SONIC BANG! :D

sat at the fountain outside ngee ann city &people watched. saw melvin, mudd, leng &girlfriends.
went over to ting's chalet at pasir ris around midnight. got pissed by mats on the bus.
all of them should just ___ la huh. God knows why they exist.
pffffffffffft! noisy, attention seeking faggots.
anyway, by the time we reached the chalet, most of them were already wasted. drank a little, had banana chocolate cake, watched melvin &greg, new found friend, pick on a guy, sherman.
everyone was freaking pissed at him. LOL.
the whole incident was just hilarious. highlight of the night uh.
ahahha. left around 4am &hung around the beach until 7am.
back to town just now for an interview. i hope i get the job!
walked around &stuff. today was a slow sunday.

i love slow sundays (:

sat at macdee's &shared a $1coke and boost, soaked in the atmosphere and all. how i wish singapore snowed.
christmas would be oh-so-perfect! i can't wait for christmas to come!

parties, gigs, dressing up &presents! :D

damnation! i'd have to go through 5days of mundan-ity before saturday!
saturday = lime sonic bang! i'd have to runsack my storeroom to look for my tent.
woo! sun, sand, sea, awesome music, hot guys &babes in bikinis!

i cannooooooooooooooooooooot wait!!! (:

should i write myself out of the history books
and mark a place in time for every chance you took
don't get me wrong i know you've got your life in place
i've yet to take the hint.

i'm sure i'll get the picture.

i don't wanna miss a thing

2007-11-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

i could stay awake just to hear you breathing
watch you smile while you're sleeping
while you're far away dreaming
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender
i could stay lost in this moment forever

every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
because i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
because even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing

lying close to you feeling your heart beating
and i'm wondering what you're dreaming
wondering if it's me you're seeing
then i kiss your eyes
and thank God we're together
i just want to stay with you in this moment forever
forever &ever

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
because i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
because even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing

i don't want to miss one smile
i don't want to miss one kiss
i just want to be with you
right here with you, just like this
i just want to hold you close
feel your heart so close to mine
and just stay here in this moment
for all the rest of time

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
i don't want to miss a thing.

happy deepavali! it's back to school in 8hours time ):

thank you for making today awesome. all we needed was each other's company, hersheys' cookies &cream, mineral water, clorets, beach, sea, waterbreak no. 12, cockroaches and a cat that eats live crabs to make a night never to forget (:

today was eventful here &there. i can't wait for saturday to come! :D

woke up this morning &watched ice skating followed by miss usa &50 celebrity breakups. what a way to spend my holiday!
many people came to view the house today. and as much as i wanna move house &start new and get my own room, i don't wanna leave this place either.
TONNES of memories. give me 1day &it'll still not be enough to tell every single story.
i teared when the thought of me packing stuff into boxes came into my mind as i saw eager faces walk around my house. craaaaaaaap!
i wanna move! i want my own room!
but i want this view! i want this house! ):

in one sense it's curiosity
the rest is just formality
i see that look in your eyes
and your clever combinations.

i'm the one you need.

can't let you go

2007-11-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

gosh! i feel like a bimbo today.
dumb! i swear.
woke up at 7.52am as usual &got ready for school. reached school at 8.52am
went to the class &there was no one there. walked around wandering where my classmates were.
texted ronald to ask if there was a change of classroom. checked my timetable twice to ensure that i got the class right.
the third time i checked, i FINALLY realised that class started at 11am instead of 9am. freaking hell!
i was there 2hours early. pfffffffffffffffffffffft!!
second time this year already. bimbo bimbo bimbo! :x

shikin was another one. she thought class started at 10am.
so both of us were sitting at benches &just plain stoned. school today was crappy though.
felt to stoned. tutorials &lecture were boring!
headed to give tuition after school. another routine day tomorrow.

i need some kind of surprise ;)

something i wrote while stoning at the benches.

all my life i've been searching for something
something never comes, never leads to nothing
nothing satisfies but i'm getting close
closer to the prize at the end of the road

i should have known better to lie with one as beautiful as you
i should have known better to take a chance on ever losing you
but i thought you'd understand, can you forgive me?
just give me any kind of reason not to let you go

i never want to play the games that people play
i stumbled in the darkness
i've been awake for awhile now

your love for me was everything i need

i should have known better to lie with one as beautiful as you
i should have known better to take a chance on ever losing you
but i thought you'd understand, can you forgive me?
just give me any kind of reason not to let you go

my weakness is that i care too much
words fall out of my mouth
but i can't seem to trace what i'm saying

everybody wants your time

i'm just dreaming out loud
please don't do what i say

because if you don't love me, it's worthless anyway

i should have known better to lie with one as beautiful as you
i should have known better to take a chance on ever losing you
but i thought you'd understand, can you forgive me?
just give me any kind of reason not to let you go

just give me any kind of reason not to let you go
i think you know...

two eyes that haunt me
when i turn out the light
two lips that taunt me
from the darkness each night

i try &hide my heart to keep my distance in the dark.

all my dreams

2007-11-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

girls' day out was awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwsome!!!! :D

met up at tampines &took a train to bugis. had lunch at some coffee shop before walking it off at the "thieves market".
a little history lesson for you guys. the "thieves market" got its name since many years ago.
during the war, there was massive stealing going on in singapore &whatever that was stolen, the thieves would go to that particular place at sungei road to sell their loot. so over the years, it developed the name "thieves market".
basically, the stuff that can be found there is EVERY DAMN THING. name it &you got it.
most of it is really old school stuff. we saw gramaphones!
but couldn't take a picture because the owner was staring at us. in fact, almost everyone there was staring at us.
ding dang shimmy shimmy. it's like they haven't since females in their life :x

headed back to parco bugis junction for toilet break then we sat at rockery to have the all-time-favourite - MANGO TANGO! :D

headed to some alley behind bugis street &camwhored!! stopped the crowd everytime we started posing &smiling.
ahahaha. that's what i call "stopping traffic" ;)

sary had to leave to go hari raya visiting. so sity and i decided to go to city hall to camwhore somemore!

God, we felt like tourists for the day. pictures turned out GREEEEEEAT!

the day was lovely awesome fantastic and i spent it with 2very dear hot huggable girls of mine :D

back to school in 8hours time! pfffffffffft!
i'm beginning to hate school. crap.

all my dreams
still relive you
if this is what you left for me
i forgive you.

never do i despair.

not ready to make nice

2007-11-03T01:00:00.001+08:00

the past week has been awesome. i haven't skipped any tutorials or lectures :D

and i've been sleeping by 12midnight everyday. i've no idea what's gotten into me.
LOL. french has been enjoyable &enriching as usual.
i LOVE marketing fundementals tutorials &lectures. sounds wrong but who gives a flower!
accounting &business statistics have been plain crap. i never liked maths :x

oh! sale of clothes have been good this week.
made 2transactions already (reminds me of marketing fundementals). one was a swap which occured &boy, was it hilarious!
this girl, XL, wanted my black off shoulder &requested for swap. i saw this baby blue smock tube on XL's blogshop &told her i was willing to swap.
THEN the horror came. she told me she was a size XL &asked if my top would fit here.
told her it's free size &stretchable. and i asked XL if the tube would be too loose for me because i'm a size S.
all XL said was "i bought it from previous owner and i didn't like it." so ya, i went ALL the way to bishan today after school to meet her, XL girl.
she's FREAKING XL la!!! wah piang eh!
the horror!!! saw 4got released earlier in singapore uh.
i doubt XL can fit in my top. she'll probably stretched it until it's about to burst at the seams.
WAIT! the better part comes.
the blue smock tube? XL obviously has worn it before and a FOX size 1became a size 3la!
I SWEAR! it will freaking drop if i wear it la!!!!!
now i've to improvise to find ways to make it wearable. TSK!!!!!
ALSO!!! there are stains on the top (smacks forehead)

and it smells like sweat! sour sour sweat :x

ohGod.... i should stop thinking about it. it's making me feel horrible.
ahahah. i wonder how she's feeling after seeing my top.
maybe she'll be inspired to lose weight. HEH!
off to town tomorrow to meet another girl. i'll be $8richer :D

i've a wedding dinner coming up on 1 december. i'm eff-ing excited.
found a dress to wear already. and the groom's our friend.
he used to work at this student care in bedok with my mum and i'd go there during the holidays. it's been like... 6years (?) since i last saw him.
we were surprised he actually remembered us. awwwsome!

i can't wait!! (:

forgive sounds good
forget; i'm not sure i could
they say time heals everything
but i'm still waiting.

i'm through with doubt.

the heart never lies

2007-10-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

some people laugh
and some people cry
and some people live
and some people die

some people run
right into the fire
and some people hide
their every desire

but we're the lovers
if you don't believe me
then just look into my eyes
because the heart never lies

some people fight
and some people fall
others pretend
they don't care at all

if you wanna fight
i'll stand there beside you
the day that you fall

i'll be there behind you

to pick up the pieces
if you don't believe me
then just look into my eyes
because the heart never lies

another year over
and we're still together
it's not always easy

but i'm here forever

we're the lovers
i know you believe me
when you look into my eyes
because the heart never lies.

the smell of your skin lingers on me now.

hero

2007-10-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

i was a happy gopper until now ):

okaaay... happy stuff! i spent $20on 4items over the weekend :D

i FINALLY sent my red skinnies for altering. HEH.
sent a dress for alteration too. headed to somerset with ronald to shop at the ONE MONTH-AWAITED flea market.
aahaha. bought a red topshop dress &grey fox long sleeve top for $11.
three cheers for flea markets! i walked away smiling like some idiot.

spent the whole evening at orchard window shopping, people watching &talked crap most of the time. it was great!

i really enjoyed myself, really really (:

went to sity's house for hari raya. melvin, farhan, leng &his girlfriend and gloria were there.

sat around, talked as usual, ate dinner cooked by sity's mum (yummaaay!!), slept over, woke up 12hours later, lazed around for 4hours before heading to tampines for dinner &quick errands.

well spent weekend (:

i hate to see things falling apart. i hate seeing her being bullied by him.
i hate to see tears in her eyes. i hate seeing him lay his hands on her.
i hate to see everything going wrong and i can't do anything. i hate living in this house.
i hate to see this house go to some other family. i hate seeing memories fade away like a tape without sound.

would you dance
if i asked you to dance
would you run
and never look back?

would you save my soul tonight?

baby, i love you

2007-10-27T04:15:00.000+08:00

it's 4.18am! childhood friend's officially 17now! :D

gosh. i love her to death.
11years &we're still going strong. how amazing is that?
whenever we talk about the past, i find it so magical that we managed to find each other again after 4years of no contact. thank God for a friend like her.
was invited to her chalet at aloha changi but she didn't know that we were turning up. LOL.

she screamed so loudly when i came out of the car. ohmyg, never change.
still that same piercing scream &boy, has it been aeons since i saw her mum. she still looks as stunning as ever, i swear!
too bad i didn't get a picture with her. anyway, the place was AWWWSOME!
i'm sooooooooo going to book that for my 18th birthday la! i can picture it happening.
it's super spacious &it's just beside the sea. what a perfect place.
sat around, ate BBQ food, crapped, laughed, sang childhood friend a birthday song, cut the yummay chocolate cake, played cards, drank, walked along the beach, shared moments which have become memories. really sweet memories.
the whole night was a sweet memory. one i'll definitely keep for eternity.
slept for 2hours before washing up &headed for school. had trouble staying awake during the first lecture.
the lack of sleep was taking effect la. gosh.
staying out on a school night's not a right thing to do. headed home after school ended &just dozed off.
there's the flea market later! i've been waiting the whole week for it.
it's been God-knows-when since i last shopped! my fingers are itching already!
shall get sleep &be all ready for tomorrow! i love you childhood friend, TRUCKLOADS!! :D

i'm your torchlight &you're my batteries. you light me up and i keep you going.
you'll be 1 and i'll be 2. together, we make a perfect number &you've been more than i could ever ask of you.

i love you.

boy, i never knew i could feel
the way i felt when i felt the way
you were feeling me
i'm so out of control.

i adore those pretty eyes.

i'll follow you into the dark

2007-10-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

so! the past 3days of semester 2has been managable.

my timetable's not too bad but not very slack either :x

i got french as my CDS :D

comment ca va? (how are you doing?)

and many other sentences. ahahha.
the french lecturer was HOT! him speaking english with that french accent was just haaa.....!!
LOL. tutorial group isn't too bad either.
shikin's hot guy with long wavy hair is in my french tutorial!! heh.

i think i'm going to enjoy the upcoming french lessons (:

rest of lectures have been good. i promise i won't skip any lectures this semester!

cross my heart &hope to die. swimming today was great but it would have been superb if there was SUN!
i've no school later. i think i'll go get a tan &the dress from topshop which was initially $73is now $43!!
craaaaaaaaap!! i HAVE TO HAVE TO get it no matter what!

love of mine, some day you'll die
but i'll be close behind
i'll follow you into the dark
no binding light or tunnels to gates of white.

i'll follow you into the dark.

exceptional

2007-10-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

you're beautiful but you don't know
can't see what's there inside your soul
always feeling like you're not good enough
you wish you could be someone else
sometimes you just can't see yourself

but i can see just who you are

you're exceptional the way you are
dont need to change for nobody
you're incredible, anyone can see that
when will you believe that?

you are nothing but exceptional

would never think you'd measure up
never smart or cool, or pretty enough
always feeling different from all the rest
you feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in
i think you're perfect in the skin you're in

you're just perfect just how you are

if you could see the one i see when i see you
you'd know how lucky you are to be you

i see through into you

and you're exceptional the way you are.

saying i love you's not the words i want to hear from you.

amazed

2007-10-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

a cool breeze caressed their faces
two happy souls, oblivious to others
surrounded by soft chairs &metal shelves
pages &words took them to a world where there's no one else

spending the quiet moments alone
no words needed, feelings were known
rustling pages &people bustling around
the beating of 2hearts was the only sound

different people, interested faces
take her to france of all places
"je t'aime" is what she says straight from the heart
"tu me manques" is what she feels when they're apart

bus rides as she looks out the window
wondering if they'll ever see tomorrow
then a smile creeps by as he puts his hand around her waist
and she wishes the bus driver makes no haste

as she turns away to leave
a happy sigh she'd often heave
thoughts go racing through her mind
and they both wish that they could turn back time.

you're MY inspiration (:

every time our eyes meet
this feeling inside me
is almost more than i can take
when you touch me i can feel how much you love me.

i've never been this close to anyone.

i've got you

2007-10-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

the world would be a lonely place
without the one that puts a smile on your face
so hold me til the sun burns out

i won't be lonely when i'm down

cuz i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough &an hour seems much longer

i never doubted you at all
if stars collide will you stand by and watch them fall?
so hold me til the sky is clear

and whisper words of love right into my ear

cuz i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough &an hour seemd much longer
when i've got you
to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll
be easier together

looking in your eyes
hoping they won't cry
and even if they do i'll be in bed so close to you
to hold you through the night
and you'll be unaware

but if you need me i'll be there

i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough &an hour seems much longer
when i've got you
to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll be easier together

when i've got you.

i'm so tired of being here.